Life fell short.
I'm worth so much more than what I've had to endure.
I will never find a cure. What a waste of time.

Sick of fuckin' wasting my time.
Sick of fuckin' being alive.
Sick of screaming every night.
Sick of everything.

Sick. Sick. Sick.
But I'm getting by.
Sick. Sick. Sick.
Just killing time.

Just killing time.
Sick mother fucker just trynna survive.
I'm just wasting my time.
So what's the point of being alive?
I will not back down.

I have found yet another way to numb the pain.
It's calling me from deep inside.
The stranglehold that you have had upon my life may not start to loosen.

I'm gonna be ill for the rest of my life.
Might as well take another pill.

What the fuck have you done to me?
Look at what I've become.
You make me sick.
You make me fuckin' sick.

You make me fuckin' sick.
Daddy's girl is a selfish bitch.
Keep pushing pills, I hope it fucking kills you.


from Finding A Home In Heartache, released December 1, 2016



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